463th post, rainy.

Two rejections.. I don't even know what to feel. And one had to come in the middle of the HK trip, while the other was waiting for me when I came home after the trip. Sometimes I feel so frigging blue because I don't know how to deal with it other than wait for a reply to my appeal, which honestly doesn't provide me with the slightest bit of assurance because I am still left hanging, waiting. Other times I feel nothing - probably already dipped my expectations so low as the time goes by that the fall isn't as hard or painful anymore. And then there are times when I'll feel a little more adventurous and crazy and wonder if this is a sign to live my life chasing after dreams rather than assimilate to the norm and study hard, simply to get a good job in the future.

Both the HK trip and CNBLUE's concert were awesome in helping me get my mind off this burdensome uni problem but now that both are over, I'm thrown back into harsh reality, having to wonder what went wrong because so many people have told me that my results were good enough to get into university. Now I can only hope that my appeals will be successful.. if given the chance, I will really work hard to shine.

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On a brighter note, the HK trip has been an amazing one and I'm really thankful that my girls actually made it happen instead of just paying lip service. It makes me feel like they actually want to spend the quality time together too and it's not just my wishful thinking and I love them for that :) I really hope that they meant it when they expressed the wish to make this kind of overseas trip an annual one, it'll be be-awesome (short for beyond awesome, I forgot which cartoon I heard this word from haha) !��