455th post, sunny.

I didn't realise that I've stopped updating for so long.
I still remember those days when I updated every single day and even missing one day seemed weird.

Those days..

Retaining probably wasn't as bad as I thought.
I think I wouldn't have survived if I've gone on to J2, even now I'm still not sure of my topics and some of the J1s are doing even better than me.
I'm making new friends, the new batch of J1s are all really friendly, they're really fun to hang out with but then I still miss my J2 friends a whole lot. Especially Corene and Yong Yang.
We used to hang out everyday but now, even trying to catch a sight of them in school is tough.
I love my J1 friends, especially OG 12, but I'm glad that I have some retainees in my class and that I'm not the only one cus despite being the awesome friends that they are, they can never understand the feelings of retaining and for that, I'm glad that I have Jie'r in the same class as me. I miss a lot of people but often I would wonder if they will ever miss me too. And sometimes, it's really lonely to be separated from familiarity.

Okay, enough of the emo-ness.

Hopefully this extra year will allow me to build a stronger foundation for myself and then life will be a little easier in J2- even though it will still be really really tough.
Hopefully my new found friends will help me get through these two years and these friendships will last for life.
Hopefully I'll still be able to stay in contact and remain close with my old friends and they will be able to ace in their a levels this year.

Recently I've been watching The Hippocratic Crush/On Call 36 小时 - which is frigging nice! (Love Kenneth, Tavia and Him!) - and there are some quotes that I really love ..

"It is a beautiful thing, to hope, and also to have hopes placed on us; because it means that we are still alive."

"But because of hope, no matter how painful, we can still get through it. So even if we fear disappointment or pain, we cannot lose hope."

I love such beautiful dramas :)

Haha, I end up comforting myself. Alright, shouldn't lose hope, I need to keep working harder!
I'm glad that I have Buddha to rely on.
I'm glad that I have supportive parents and a caring brother.
I'm glad that I have old friends like Corene and Yong Yang, Eemin and Weiquan to look for.
I'm glad that I have new friends like OG12 mates and fellow retainees like Jie'r to help me adapt better in a whole new environment.
I'm glad that I have this extra year to catch up on my school work.
I'm glad that most people around me are encouraging after knowing my situation.

I think no one will even see this since I went on such a long hiatus but it's okay, I feel better getting it all off my chest haha. I'm glad that I didn't choose to delete this blog the last time I contemplated to.

Alright, I'll end off this post now, annyeong.

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